Life Change

277.7. I can't believe that I weigh that much. This has been a complete life change. It isn't a fad, it isn't inspiration it is acknowledging my sin before God and begging for his strength to change the course of my life. I have been fat since I was 8. That's 25 years. Its a life pattern that is hard to break. I know I will have struggles and I will fail, but I am determined not to go back to old habits and patterns. The weight is coming off slower but my life is changing more. I bought a weight bench and started lifting 3 days ago. A regular day for me is like this - slim fast drink and bar for breakfast (380 cal.) a salad for lunch (350 cal. at the most, I refuse to use dressing that taste like sh... if I am going to eat a salad) and a subway 6in turkey and baked lays when I am at work (450 cal). I may eat 2 apples during day and a jello at night. That's 1350 calories a day from 8000. Fricking 8000 calories a day and I aint exaggeratin.
I stretch before I run (walking mostly and some jogging, running sounds better), I do push ups, curls, bench, and I walk/jog for 50 minutes, August 1 it goes to 55. After that I climb 108 stairs. I started doing crunches as well and while I watch TV I do that hand grip thing. Yes I'm obsessed and realize that this high will come down, but I need a high for at least 2 more months.
Jesus has completely changed my life and some things like lust and anger are looking like smaller foes, I will be like you Jesus, thanks for changing my life yet again.